Jesus Did It Again!!

It's day 329 of documenting 2025.

36 days to 2026!

I got through today, only by God's grace 😌

I dozed off occasionally during the lectures and I thank God I wasn't spotted out.

Sometimes, I don't know what I'm doing. I feel like I'm doing a lot of things...with the course rep stuff, my online job, a writing contract and of course, my studies.

Would you believe I haven't actually had the time to study any of the Psychology PDFs I downloaded?

I was just thinking about all these as I got home from classes this afternoon.

And then as I was soaking my shirt in water, an internal monologue took place.

So, here's how it went:

"I'm doing a lot of things, and it's a miracle I'm not overwhelmed.

Sometimes, I wonder if it's even worth it....that I could just quit and free up time for actual study"

"But what if God put you in those positions for a reason?

God put the idea in your heart to do those things...and now you want to give up?"

"I know it's service...but sometimes I feel like it's getting overwhelming.

If I could have more time, I would focus on my books, which is why I'm here, right?"

"Sure. Then you're trying to tell God that He made a mistake by putting you there. Is that right?"

"No Abba 😌. I'm so sorry...I'll try my best. I'm going to figure things out, I promise".

Well...

That wasn't EXACTLY how it went.

I added a few extra monologue in some places 😏

But I'm sure you get the main idea of the monologue.

I repeatedly feel like I'm failing, because God is trying to tell me that I should depend more on His grace than in my ability.

Like He told Paul, "My grace is sufficient for you" I'll take the cue ☺️

It's probably me.

I don't usually remember to ask my Heavenly Father for what I need.

I just keep quiet and try on my own...and today is one of those days that He's reminding me.

"Abide in me".

I hear you, Jesus ♥️

Okay, that was pretty much how my day went.

I'm outside, trying to knock off some tasks on my checklist, and typing this blog is one of them.

It's just a few minutes past 6pm...and I don't want this to get in my way, when I'm doing homework.

And I also plan to use my battery till it's the lowest, before I can charge it up.

Let's see how it goes.

Alright, alright...enough gist.

Let's get into highlights for today and then I'll round up with my sentiments on the topic and a few more thoughts.

Oh! and by the way....the book we're highlighting is a 365-day book on self-discipline written by Martin Meadows.

365 Days With Self-discipline

📌 On a Change in Beliefs

"All personal breakthroughs begin with a change in beliefs. So how do we change? The most effective way is to get your brain to associate massive pain to the old belief. 

You must feel deep in your gut that not only has this belief cost you pain in the past, but it’s costing you in the present and, ultimately, can only bring you pain in the future."

Quote by Tony Robbins

You won’t change until you recognize your bad beliefs and habits as your enemies. 

The best way to change them is to associate them with the pain that they’ve been steadily delivering to you ever since you first adopted them.

For example, I overcame my habit of staying up late and waking up at 1-2 p.m. largely because of associating it with the depression I felt each winter because of a lack of sunlight.

Upon realizing that my habit and belief that I was a night owl had cost me so much and would bring me so much more pain in the future, I switched my routine. 

Today I can hardly think of a better feeling than getting up early and being super productive from beginning my day in the early morning.What are your habits and beliefs costing you? 

You need to recognize all the different kinds of costs they have generated, are generating, and will continue to generate in the future if you don’t make some changes in your life. 

You will only be ready to change when you feel deep down in your gut how detrimental they are to you and your life.

I can totally relate with this concept.

Most of the bad habits I have dropped is due to the fact that I found something negative...or rather, a lot of things negative about those habits that I now associate those habits with torture.

And whenever I pray, the thoughts of going back always brings tears to my life, because I really don't want that life back. That's just it.

So I totally understand how that works.

Okay, any more thoughts I want to share? Yes there's one.

I was feeling hesitant to talk to my friend this evening.

I sent her a weird message last night and couldn't talk it out with her this morning, as she went for lectures.

Then this evening, I overheard something from a program my roommate was watching.

It was Eric Gugua's Beyond Conversation, a paid online conference.

So, Eric mentioned something.

He said and I quote, "clarity comes from action, not thought".

He explained that yes, you would think about what to do, but to be clear on what works and what won't work...you have to act on it.

I didn't pay for the conference, but that nugget will definitely serve me for a long time.

Like it served me today.

I was intent on seeing my friend, to talk things out with her....and was ready to bear the fact that she might get mad at me.

Guess what?

I saw her this evening...and when we finally talked, she wasn't mad at all. She understood where I was coming from!

I just thank God for His guidance...because I know myself.

I'm the kind of person that avoids difficult conversations. On a normal day, I would just avoid talking to her....but I faced that fear and got clear on the fact that she values my opinion.

That means I'm getting good at this friendship stuff, right? 😊

Time will tell.

That would be all for today's documentation.

Thanks for reading 🎀

You can always catch up on former posts by visiting the main website, Documenting 2025.

2026 is already here!

See you in the next post 💜