When I Fall (The Song)

It's day 267 of documenting 2025.

98 days to 2026!

Well, it's another late night post.

Today, there's no excuse.

It was totally on me.

Let's get the show on the road, shall we?

First it's Highlights and after that, I can share my thoughts and a story about something that happened behind the scenes. (Sounds good! 👍🏼 )

365 Days With Self-discipline 

📌 On Self-Monitoring

"The more carefully and frequently you monitor yourself, the better you’ll control yourself."

Quote by Roy Baumeister

People who monitor their weight regularly have a higher chance of maintaining weight loss permanently.

People monitoring their output at work have a higher chance of remaining productive in the long run.

People who monitor the hours when they go to sleep and wake up are more likely to become permanent early risers.

Self-monitoring is a crucial tool to help you keep track of your results and then, upon achieving your goal, maintaining them forever. 

How often do you monitor yourself? Is it a part of your daily or weekly schedule? 

If not, it’s time to make that happen.

Well, I can say I monitor myself...but not in all aspects.

I think it's just in specific areas of my life, with the spiritual aspect the most important for me.

Doesn't mean I neglect the other aspects tho...but I'm still getting to know Jesus better, so it's a work in progress.

You know what?

Let me try to recall some Bible verses...right here, right now.

"By little and little I will drive them out from before thee, untill thou be increased and inherit the land"

Exodus 23:30

"I have blotted out as a thick cloud, thy transgression; and as a cloud, thy sins: return unto me, for I have redeemed thee"

Isiah 44:22

"Heal me O Lord, and I shall be healed; save me and I shall be saved, for thou art my praise"

Jeremiah 17:14

"For God hath not given us a spirit of fear, but of power,and of love and of a sound mind"

2Timothy 1:7

One more....something long.

"With my whole heart have I sought thee, O let me not wander from thy commandments.

Thy word have I hid in my heart, that I might not sin against thee"

Psalms 119:10-11

These are the ones I can recall now.

And I feel like these ones came to mind because they somehow reflect how today went for me.

But I'll just count my blessings instead.

Today, I got a message from one of my contacts...and she was thanking me for the job I helped her to acquire in the agency I stopped working for.

Turns out, she was promoted...and I was nothing short of happy for her.

On my end, it was nice to be remembered by someone I thought to be distant...even though I've been caught up in my own world lately.

Normally, I used to be the one checking up on others, and being there for them...even when it affected me.

I stopped when I realized I wasn't paying attention to who I was on the inside.

Now, people are checking up on me.

It's a nice feeling ☺️

In addition to that, my day at school wasn't stressful...but I was a little rattled because my phone hit the ground again.

For like the 2nd time this month.

It ended up with a visible crack right in the middle of my screen.

A simple reminder that something needs changing.

Here's also something weird...and you tell me if it's a coincidence or not 🤔 

So, this morning, as I was getting ready for school...I listened to a song by Kathy Nicole.

It's called, "When I Fall".

It's basically a cry for help to God by someone who falls constantly.

Then in the afternoon, during a class...my phone falls flat on it's screen. Apparently a student wouldn't stay still and it fell from her table, where I had placed it.

I kept my cool when it happened, didn't even feel angry.

I later made a joke about the student and her seat partner paying for the replacement of the screen.

It's not so bad tho...at least there's no ink blocking the screen and I can still see what I'm typing on my keyboard.

It's by God's grace that something worse didn't happen to it.

Then this evening, I sort of...got carried away by what didn't need attention.

And somehow, I was avoiding the process of typing this very post.

Then thoughts of not feeling worthy and a false impression started creeping in. 

I "fell" short.

I couldn't even pray, with how mentally distressed I was feeling.

Then I just texted my feelings.

Like Jesus had a phone to receive my messages.

I actually felt better...because it was the same tool causing my distress that I was using to redirect my attention.

You know what happened next?

I'll tell you! 😄

A Scripture verse came to mind.

Isaiah 44:22

(Quoted earlier in this post)

It was like God responded directly to my text, which was coming from my thoughts.

It felt liberating 🌺

It seems this whole day was trying to tell me that even when I fall, God will always pick me up.

Like I picked up my phone when it fell, not boiling with rage.

He will pick me up, dust me off and fix me when I need it.

It's same for everyone else that calls upon the name of God.

I pray that God will open the eyes of His children, so they can see their need for Him in their lives.

Especially my brothers 😏

I can't do more than talk to them...I can only pray for God to take control. He always has

And I believe God will do the work that no man can do for them.

Yeah...I'll end today's post on that note.

Thanks for reading 🎀 

I was supposed to share a behind -the-scenes story...but I think this qualifies too.

If you want to read more posts, you can navigate the whole website, Documenting 2025.

See you in the next post 💜