Last Lecture Of 2025!!

It's day 352 of documenting 2025.

13 days to 2026!

Today being Thursday definitely gave off the mid-week vibes 😎

We had our last lecture for the year, despite rumors that the lecturer was not going to come.

He hadn't shown up for the last two weeks and my coursemates got upset.

So, they ditched the last class.

We were only ten during the lecture...and we got down a few notes and asked questions, as well as got explanations from the lecture.

Then that was it!

We were officially on break! 😁

There were hugs and mentions of 

"till next year". 

Something happened tho...that made me check myself, because I was like, "from where?"

I'm the course rep, right?

And the assistant course rep is a guy....let's call him E.

So, E and I became friends due to our engagements as reps of the class. As a result, we moved around together a lot and worked closely to ensure the smooth working of the class.

But then, somewhere along the line...unconsciously, I started to develop feelings. Unhealthy ones.

Something along the lines of an infatuation.

And did I mention that he invited me for a programme in his town?

Well, now you know! 

What happened was that a fellow coursemate...let's call her S, hugged him.

It was probably nothing, as she was giving out hugs. 

Then E was like, "where's my hug?" 

She went over to hug him and I felt slight jealousy.

I didn't admit that I was jealous at that point, and just left it off...forgot it, and moved on.

You also remember when I said I was going to be a chorister?

Maybe not 🤔

So, E came to the hostel for the choir practice, coupled with  laughter and the need to separate two of his friends who had a dispute.

My roommate made extra food and she offered me some, which I took downstairs and offered E....because I couldn't even finish it.

We then discussed how the trip was going to go. He would sponsor my trip while I helped out in the two programmes.

I still didn't admit anything until after he left. I grew restless as I thought about the trip....with many thoughts crossing my mind.

"Do you really know who this person is?"

"Why do you act different around him, compared to other guys?"

Then it dawned on me.

I texted him.

I told him everything.

I admitted that I had developed feelings for him and as a result, wouldn't want to go on the trip anymore.

I also apologized for disappointing him, and asked to see him before he left if he wasn't angry at me.

That's where I ended the chat.

In my past experience with guys, I was expecting a very different reaction....after all I said.

He was like, "no problem...it is well".

All calm and collected.

I prayed and told God that what ever happened, He should take control.

That's how my day went...with an unexpected twist.

Before we dive in any further, let's look at the highlights for today.

We're wrapping this blog up soon, with less than two weeks to go.

365 Days With Self-discipline

📌 On the Empowerment in Trade-Offs

Essentialists see trade-offs as an inherent part of life, not as an inherently negative part of life. Instead of asking,

'What do I have to give up?” they ask,

"What do I want to go big on?"

Quote by Greg McKeown

We’ve discussed that it’s essential to replace “I can’t do it” with “I don’t do

it” in order not to think of your resolutions as punishments. 

This entry is about taking that even further: instead of asking yourself what you have to give up, think of something more important that you want to gain. 

In other words, frame your perception of giving up a harmful behavior as an act of empowerment, not an act of sacrifice.

For example, if you want to start saving money, it’s not a question of what you won’t be able to buy anymore. 

The right question is what will saving more

money let you “go big on”? 

How about improving your peace of mind, spending less time shopping, treating your family to a nice vacation, or (ultimately)

perhaps even retiring early? 

In the grand scheme of things, what does giving up some purchases mean in comparison to that?

Approach each trade-off in the same way: ensure that you understand deep

down that it’s an act of choosing to get more of something you consider

important, and not an act of sacrificing something to get something else.

Here's my take on this:

When it comes to quitting a bad habit, if you frame it as something you have to lose...it becomes difficult to stop.

However, if you frame it as something you stand to gain by letting it go, it becomes easier to stop it.

Now, let's continue from where I left off. 

About me developing feelings for my coursemate, who also happens to be the assistant course rep.

I know that me telling him may sound weird, because people always feel scared to admit these things.

Well, I'm not.

I know myself...and I know that if I don't admit it, it starts to grow and get me distracted.

That's why I told him that I'm developing feelings that are unhealthy.

I call them unhealthy because I don't want to entertain them...because he's my friend.

I know there are people who will say, "what's bad in being more than friends?"

Bro, I don't need it at this point.

Emotions are very tricky and you may say it's fear...but I'll call it distraction.

We're going to meet tomorrow and then I'll know his mind.

Let's see how it goes 😌

That would be all for today's documentation.

Thanks for reading 🎀

The year is ending soon...and the experiences are only getting more interesting.

Who knows what might happen on the last day of the year?

See you in the next post 💜