Down Sunday

It's day 292 of documenting 2025.

73 days to 2026!

How did my Sunday go?

Not so happy 😪

Why?

I didn't start it with Jesus.

I'm kinda new to walking with Christ..and so far He has been very patient and understanding with me.

Some days, I would be so connected to Him and the day would go well.

Other days, He would show me just how much I need Him.

Today was one of those other days.

It's a very long story...

And it started with a phone call.

One that I now realize, I wasn't supposed to answer.

So, this morning, the guy helping me with my admission documents called me.

I knew why he was calling, because he disturbed me as well yesterday.

The call woke me up....and that was the first thing I did.

Answer a phone call, instead of spending some quiet time with God.

Then I had to go out on an errand.

As I was walking, I talked to God.

I apologized for not praying like I was supposed to.

Then something happened.

After I said, "I was too tired to pray".

Then it seemed like a voice instantly replied, "Too tired to pray?"

It sounded louder than my usual thought.

The way it came, it sounded like God was scolding me.

I continued to pray for mercy till I got back home. That was it.

The only communication I had with God for the whole day.

I didn't go through my usual routine today...and for some reason, didn't open my Bible app or study today's verse.

I was "occupied".

Too occupied to hear from God 

(Me looking at myself now...😒)

It's not like, at some point I didn't think of my routine activities.

There was this resistance...

I didn't do well to open my mouth and pray about it.

I kept silent 😶 

Fast forward to this evening, I was coming back to myself.

Yeah...not to forget, the terrible headache I had.

In the evening, I talked to God, finally opening up to Him.

I said, "I know the headache came from you, because you're trying to tell me that I didn't do well today"

I prayed for mercy again.

Then later on, I got on a call with a Bible study group I recently joined.

When the host asked how my day went, I stammered as I tried to explain the fact that I was down today....and I wasn't aware of God's presence.

He said he understood what I was trying to say.

I didn't stay till the end of the call tho....I had to attend to a trainee.

Or maybe I was feeling that resistance again 😔

I thought about a lot more things...which I will share after today's highlights.

365 Days With Self-discipline 

📌 On Mental Resilience 

"Do not grieve.

Anything you lose comes round in another form."

Quote by Jalaluddin Rumi

The essence of mental resilience is the belief that anything bad that happens to you will ultimately turn out to be good for you.

However, I wouldn’t go so far as to say “don’t grieve” after losing a loved one, so please note that today’s entry is about being mentally resilient when it comes to less impactful negative events happening in your life.

When faced with heartbreaking losses such as a business going bankrupt, a lost job opportunity, a breakup, or even your new diet going south, it’s hard to see it as a possible blessing in disguise. 

After all, you’ve just lost something — a business, a relationship, a job, or hope for improvement.

As an immediate reaction, it might be challenging to not feel bad about the situation. 

However, once you process that it has happened and accept that, one of the best ways to move on is to remind yourself that what you’ve just lost will come around again in a different form.

Maybe a breakup was necessary so that you can start over again and find a different, better partner. Maybe your business had to go bankrupt so you could free up your resources to focus on a better idea. 

Your diet went south, and maybe it happened because now you’ll discover new nutritional habits that will be easier to maintain than your previous restrictive diet.

Each time something bad happens, try to find a lesson in it and the new

opportunities it presents. 

I suggest that you start small, with less significant negative events, as it will take time and experience to learn to handle bigger difficulties with calm and dignity.

Today was definitely a "not-so-good" way to start the week.

But I thank God 😌

I started on the finishing touch to the crochet bag I'm making for school...and I finished it today!

All that's left are the handles for the bag and it's good to go.

Now that I'm thinking about it, I feel like the whole of today was just a big lesson.

A lesson that goes like this:

"I'm still a work in progress, like the crochet bag. I'm not complete yet."

Another lesson is this:

"Whenever I feel down, I should always remind myself of God's Word."

God clearly said to me a few months back,

"Think on my Word, it is comfort enough".

I'll remember that for next time.

And I won't forget to start my day with Jesus.

(God help me remember 🙏🏼)

Like I said earlier, I thought of several things.

I thought of my friendship with a particular person, someone I used to refer to as my closest friend.

Let's call him PK.

I thought of the fact that we're not connecting like we used to...but this time, it's alright 🙂 

I know he's busy with studies and work, but sometimes I can't help but wish we could do back to the good old days...

I still share stuff with him tho....

Like the incident that happened yesterday.

A guy approached me on my way home from an errand to ask for my number.

I didn't give it to him...although he introduced himself and asked for my name.

It was kinda a bit scary for me, because I was hoping it wasn't some some kind of set-up.

We went our separate ways after he accepted that he couldn't get my number.

After I told PK, he told me that I would get a lot more of those approaches from guys when I get to school.

I found that a bit scary.

Then he got serious.

He told me that guys can be very manipulative, that I should be careful....and that if I ever wanted to get into something with any guy, my dad should be the first person to know about it.

It's actually inspiring.

To know that he's looking out for me like that.

I appreciate that....but somehow, I feel like things have changed between us.

It's not easy keeping a long-distance friendship, and it's easy to drift apart.

I did that once, and ghosted him.

He got hurt.

A part of me feels like he's still hurt and just wants to focus on his academics and his job right now.

I get that.

I just hope we don't drift apart.

I sometimes refrain myself from asking for his help with certain things, because I don't think he will 

have the time to help out.

I feel like it's the same in his end.

So, the main thing is this:

I feel the need to repay him for how he has helped me so far, which is a lot.

I will still repay him in the future, when we finally get to meet in person.

And I think I know how I can repay him now. With my actions.

Working hard, living for God, serving others and developing myself.

It's a lot of work, I tell you.

But God is my strength...and coincidentally, today's Bible verse is in Isaiah 41:13, which says"

"For I the LORD thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee."

God will help me.

As long as I keep coming to Him.

As long as I keep depending on Him.

Today was a lesson indeed...one that I will take into this new week.

And I'll be leaving home this week as well...another story, waiting to be told.

Well, that's all for today's post.

Thanks for reading 🎀 

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(It's Documenting 2025!)

See you in the next post 💜