Down, But On A Greater Path

It's day 30 of documenting 2025.

And I'm doing something different today.
I'm doing it right now.
I'm typing before the usual time.
It's 1: 35am....as of the time I'm starting to type.
Quite early...but I have to.
I've got to do the laundry 7 hours from now and it might take a while.
But don't worry...
You may be reading this post 12 hours later than the time I post it online.
But you're here and that's what matters.

I didn't read Tony's book
Didn't take notes....
I apologize.
Just had a lot on my mind.
And I'm yawning so much 🥱
But the show must go on, like the circus people say.

I did some search on the exam I have to write this year.
Turns out, the subject combination may or may not support my intended course, Psychology.
But I confided in a close friend of mine and he said it may be wrong.
All of a sudden, the idea of not going to school seemed like a good one.
I don't have to go....
But there's a 'why' behind it.

Shoot!
I just dozed off 💤
I'm on my feet now....

Will get this done and dusted.

Back to what I was saying....

The 'why'.

I actually didn't like the idea of going to school at first.
That was when I started affiliate marketing.
The message out there was,
"Your degree won't help you, won't put food on the table. A digital skill will".
And the message is still getting a lot of people.
Like it got me.
But then I realized that I'm not the most social when I meet someone in person.
Online, it's where I shine.
But the real world is still out there.

So, the idea of furthering my education started to appeal to me.
I could understand what it feels like to have studies and still make out time for business.
Time management, check ✅
I could also practice social interactions in person, and learn how to speak in public.
Facing stage fright, check ✅
I can also practice marketing, online and offline.
It would surprise you that offline marketing, especially word of mouth, is still very effective.
Sales and marketing, check ✅

I'm starting to get discouraged.
I felt down for a moment....but I think it's largely contributed to me feeling awful after indulging in mindless entertainment this evening.
The battles in my mind are no joke.
I tell you.
But by God's grace, I believe I will pull through 😌

Let me quote part of what I read for day 30 of 365 Days With Self-discipline.
To make up for failing to take notes on Tony's book.
(Who's Tony?....Anthony Robbins)
And yeah....
I read day 30 of the book before I started typing.
It's becoming a habit now.
More like, it's a trigger for me to write and keep my streak alive.

Okay, the quote.
Actually, it's three paragraphs.
Short ones, I promise 😄

"This is normal — you have to fail your way to the success — but for many people, it’s a blow they can’t withstand.
They might be so harmed by it that
they’ll do anything to avoid future humiliation — including giving up on  their goals."

"Failure, rejection, and humiliation are anything but pleasant.
However, the ability to withstand it and keep going is one of the key differences between successful individuals and those who fail to make their dreams come true."

"As disagreeable as it can be, accept that occasionally looking like a fool as a part of the process of becoming a successful person.
Fortunately, the more often you voluntarily expose yourself to rejection, humiliation or failure, the
easier it will be to handle the feelings they generate."

I need to remind myself of the last paragraph.
Probably tattoo it on my arm 💪
(I like my skin tatoo-free, thank you!)
Point is, the more I willingly expose myself to rejection, the more I can handle the feelings.
I'm sure it's not that bad, once I get used to it. (Hopefully!!)

The real experience is in the real world.
And I don't want to work my way to it, through a job or whatnot.
I want to learn my way to it.
Studying Psychology will help me understand human behavior and thinking.
It will also help me make true sense of what those self-help books say.
And I want the name Duon Ada to be known, in the real world and online.
Yeah....I'm a dreamer like that.
But it starts with me.
One decision...
To write an exam.

I told my friend that I don't think I want to write the exam anymore.
Let's say I follow through with this.
What could happen?
Okay, let's just imagine here.
I never get into school.
I never start that writing club.
I never teach money-making through writing.
I never speak at student gatherings.
I never receive the scholarship from a well-known public figure.
I never travel abroad.....

So many things, my friend 😲
So many things will never happen if I decide to not write a simple exam.
(I wouldn't say simple tho....)
For me now, going to school is not about the degree.
It's about the experience.
An experience that would be stressful, full of ups and downs, heartache and pain.
On the flip side, I would be stronger, wiser and my roots would grow deeper. 🌱

Someone (maybe you!) may be reading this and say,
"This girl is crazy".
Nah son!
I'm in my right mind.
Plus, my relatives have been asking when I would 'further my education'.
For four years now.
They would be happy about it.

One important thing to note tho....
It may not happen.
Yeah, I said it.
If it doesn't, I'll be fine.
If I don't get into school this year, I'll be fine.
It may just mean that God has bigger plans for me.
And higher education is not part of it.
Let's see how it goes.
I'll keep writing till then.

Thanks for reading, my friend 😊 
Or Ami, as I like to say sometimes.
I may be on a mere 365 day writing streak....
But 70+ readers in 30 days is no small feat.
How many would have read this blog in 100 days?
Google Analytics will tell me 📈
When the time comes.

I guess I'm getting really good at improvising, right? 😀
Anyways here's a poem I wrote called, 

The Greater Path.

There’s more to life than fleeting worldly cares,
Than treasures hoarded or fame’s hollow glow.
Like leaves that scatter in the autumn air,
Such things dissolve when life’s true currents flow.

Through trials, we walk beneath the sun and rain,
Each joy and sorrow shaping who we are.
The cracks we bear are not mere signs of pain,
They’re maps to guide us toward our guiding star.

And when we pause, beyond life’s fleeting taunt,
The shadows whisper truths we dared not see.
Through patience, virtue blooms where trials haunt,
And purpose finds us, steadfast, wild, and free.

You can check out what it looks like as a carousel on Instagram as well as other amazing pieces of poetry.
See MysticVerses.

PS: It's 2:52am and I don't feel sleepy as much as before.
But don't worry, I'll go to bed 🙂